well..jz got home..reli tired...family got barbecue session at east coast...i kinda alighted at da wrong busstop n muz walk at least,hmmm 1 or 2 km to reach da place.den i ran to da place topless.haha...weeeheeeee..sum stayed overnight,but ma dad didn wan to..so we muz go home..so here i am now..sittin at home starin at da comp,writin tis post..hmm..alot of things happen lately.change da blog skin n change da song too.its nisa fav song.yar..my everything by 98degress...haixxx..how i miz her
breakdance:
finally mastered criket n make ma 'seven' more tight.n oso dat,tryin to tighten ma mills..make sure its totally no handed so i can try da munch or nutcracker..haha..mcm bagus gitu..
family:
well,ma fam prob kinda settle 4 nw..haix..reli pity em..guess i hav to sell ma handphone to help em..at least get a few hundred bucks 4 ma k700i hp..reli..ma mum keep cryin on da phone n to us,ma dad dunno wad to do..but hey,at least we're stil a family n we ok...lurve ones go through thick n thin together n not abandon em wen they need each other...hmm..
me:
i reli dunno wads happening..im reli confused rite nw....i knw i miss her...i knw i miss nisa..i knw ma prev post i said dat i 4gottn abt her and all those shit.but i will nvr 4get her..even if i pretend dat i've move on,she will alwaz b ma baby nisa..n i lurve her..n to make da matter worse,i hav been dreamin of her 4 daes straight..i reli dunno..1st nite,i dreamt dat we met.2nd nite,i dreamt dat she emailed me..3rd nite,she msg me...n da 4th nite,we met again..wad is fate tryin to sae??dat i miz her soo bad dat i dreamt of her..mayb it is true..but i reli dunno...i reli dunoo..im in a daze rite nw..i miz her voice..her laughter n her smile wen i counted to 3..seein her smile last time reli makes ma heart melt..haix..in ma previous post,i wrote dat i jz camp back frm a camp..yar..it was kinda fun ar..but it is oso sad to knw dat im leavin ma 'family' of npcc bhind..but not da ones hu backstabbed me n stuffs...wen i left,i stayed near da road n sit on da railin,seein da cadets gettin last min punishments n da wae dey do area cleanin.reminds me wen i was at dat stage.,.n i will surely miz trainin da younger cadets..da power,da fun knwin dat u're passin dwn ur knwledge to da young generations reli makes me hapi..there will alwaz this strange feelin of satisfaction n those hu hav thought others b4,will knw it too..dats y i luv teachin..dats y i wan to bcum a teacher...dats y...haix..hmm..haven done ma homework yet..didnt even touch a single thing..haha...laughter..its seems an eternity to hav me laugh wifout me forcin it or even hav dat feelin to happi..im jz alone..lonely.....reli lonely..in da buses sumtimes,i miz da feelin of sumone i lurve sittin nex to me..sumone i can lean on..sumone i can hug..jz dat special sumone...all i can do nw is jz hope dat she hav found sumone new hu she truly lurves n appreciate..sumone hu will return it to her..dats all i wish 4..4 her to b happi..its ok if im sad.alone..or wadeva shit..but 4 her to b hapi,dats ma wish 4 nw....
so nw,i guess i gotta jz concentrate on ma o lvls...yar..mayb..hope i reli did well 4 ma malay paper...had a sudden gastric attack on dat fateful dae...haix....sumtimes i reli wonder y ma life is like tis...reli...i reli wonder seriously...hmmm....
n of all things i wonder...wad are gals thinkin of..wen they go on on a relationship wif a boi,wad is their main motive..to luv?to b wif dat sumone?4 experience?or jz plain revenge??...i reli dunno...if wad they are doin jz to hav dat idea of doin to others like wad their ex did to em,y muz they do tis to us..are da boys not even human at all??we hav feelins...we hav emotions...we are humans...so gals,y are u all doin tis to us??do u like it wen ur x or ur boi dumped u,cheated on u??of course no rite..unless ur reli a bitch...but hey,if u all dun like it,den wad abt da boys??we dun like it too...we gave u luv..we gave to care..we concern abt u...bein there wen u need us,but in da end,u jz dump us like useless junk dat dun hav any feelin...cmon gals...if u think u all can survive wifout a man one dae,den imagine da world onli populated by girls n women...haix...i reli wonder...