Monday, May 30, 2005
2:46 AM
Saatnya ku berkata
Mungkin yang terakhir kalinya
Sudahlah lepaskan semua
Ku yakin inilah waktunya
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita kan bertemu lagi…
Satu pintaku jangan
Kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung
Bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu
Membuka hatimu yang dulu
Cerita saat bersamaku
Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti
Kita akan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan
Kau coba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang kutinggal mati
Seperti hari kemarin
Saat semua di sini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
Simpan saja untukmu sendiri
semua saying kau cari
semua rasa yang kau beri..
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
Sunday, May 29, 2005
5:20 PM
aku tak percaya lagi
dengan apa yang kau beri
aku terdampar di sini
tersudut menunggu mati
aku tak percaya lagi
akan guna matahari
dengan mampu menerangi
sudut gelap hati ini
aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat
kenapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
kenapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan...
Chorus:
aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku
aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kusalutkan.. kemenanganmu
bridge:
kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
Friday, May 27, 2005
11:38 PM
27 of may 2005..................
i was dumb.......
i was too dumb....
people like me are dumb...
we take all da bullshit our luv one gave em..
we alwaz give in to the one we loved...
we alwaz sae sori wen its not our fault sumtimes..
i was dumb
we alwaz console em wen they are sad or angry,but if it was us,they turn it against us..
we misses them wen they are away from us..
we dreamt of em wen we need em badly..
we hallucinate their face wen we want em....
i was dumb..
i cried 4 her wen she left me..
i cried alone da whole nite n dae wen she left me..
i skip school coz she left me..
i fell sick coz she left me...
i was dumb...
too dumb...
i loved her...but she did tis to me..
27 of april,
da dae im wif her
16 of may,
da dae she left me alone
27 of may,
da dae i spend da dae without her...
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
Once we were lovers
Just lovers we were oh what a lie
Once we were dreamers
Just dreamers we were oh you and I
Now I see you're just somebody
Who wastes all my time and money
What a lie
You and I
What about your
Your 10,000 promises?
That you gave to me
Your 10,000 promises
That you promised me
Once I could handle the truth
When the truth was you and I
But time after time all the promises
Turned out to be all lies
And now, now I see that you're somebody
Who wasted my time and money
What lie, oh what a lie (what a lie)
Oh you, you and I, oh you and I
What about your
Your 10,000 promises?
That you gave to me (to me, babe)
Your 10,000 promises
That you promised me
You say I'll take you back
But I close the door'
Cause I don't want 10,000 more
10,000 promises yeah
10,000 promises you gave to me
What about your
Your 10,000 promises?
That you gave to me
Your 10,000 promises
That you promised me(what about your)
Your 10,000 promises (10,000 promises you gave to me)
That you gave to me (what about your)
Your 10,000 promises(what about your 10,000 promises you gave to me?)
Once we were lovers
Just lovers we were
You and I
What a lie
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
supposed to da time of da mnth i look 4ward to.....but nw,its completely diff......haix.......:(
i hav nuthin to sae...ma mind in a blank...i can jz remeber da fond memories together..
onli 1 wish i have 4 her....
"nisa..i hope ur hapi n content wif ur life nw.."
i will alwaz be waitin 4 her..no matter wad
i will alwaz luv her
i will alwaz remember her as da gal hu i wish i wld marry one dae
da gal hu i surrender ma heart totally to her..
dat gal..
i luv her..
even we're apart,letme jz sae
hapi 13mnth aniversary...
........................................................................................
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
Thursday, May 26, 2005
11:21 PM
26 of may 2005.........haix.......2moro supposed to b ma eventual 13mnths 2gether....haix......luv does hurt....27 of may huh??????haix......y muz tis happen to us...i luv her..eva so much...i knw u knw it nisa,i knw u do...but u left me alone to face tis cruel n lonely world...i hope u hapi nw....hapi dat im sufferin..hapi dat im lonely.....congrats to u if dats wad u reli want to happen to me..no matter how much u sae sori to me listen to tis,i wun eva,never 4give u for breakin tis heart into a million pieces..u used to sae 4give n 4get,but is tis wad ur doin nisa??????is tis is wad?????haix......results are ou,n i did badly...u listen to dat?badly.....i drop ma accounts frm da usual A1 to a C6...hear dat??????i was dumb....too dumb.to think dat i hope of seein u again..to think dat i dream n hallucinate ur face in da examination hall....all 4 wad?????in da end......haix.....2moro meet da parents session,hopefully i will get a public scoldin infront of all da parents there...i deserve it....like i said i was dumb...i was dumb....too dumb...nisa,its not ur fault.i was dumb...its all mine...everything has alwaz been mine....nw i jz hope dat ur hapi livin ur own carefree life....4get me.....4get everything dat we went through....4get da pain n da sufferin we went through to maintain tis rel....coz i wun b.....i will alwaz b rememberin da memories....i will nvr 4get em...4eva in ma heart..rite frm da first dae i set ma eyes on u,til to da dae we parted............malay o lvl tis mon......haha.....guranteed ma score.a flat F9.....confirm.......mayb i'll do sumthing crazee,like da looney i am....mayb i wun turn up...mayb i'll even leave da paper blank.....i dun care.no one does.....da onli one hu does hav left me.....so letme jz cont to suffer.....no frens....no nuthing......might as well rot n bcum sampah masyarakat,jz like wad ma dad sae.......hmmmm,mayb i will do it........i dun care........I DUN CARE..............
n btw,skoo da ruomurs kayz.....dun go hearin nonsense im nw wif seri...ouh pls..........like i got nuthin beta...to think i waited 4 u nisa.......to think......god damn it,WAD HAVE I DONE WRONG TO DESERVE TIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
5:05 PM
didn go to school 2dae....ma eyes hav bcum swollen......cried da whole nite.....nisa if ur readin tis...tis is wad u did to m...hope ur hapi knwin dat u did tis to me....i didn even open da door wen ma parents knocked.......all i did da whole nite was close da door.....im too hurt.....i cnt face em like tis....in tis state.....i jz cant.....aft all da things i did 4 her,she left me jz like dat....aft i gave everything to her,spent ma time wif her....alwaz been there 4 her...luv her like i didn b4....she left me...wen i stood up 4 her..haix.......
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
16 of may 2005..it will alwaz remain in ma mind as da most hurtful day of ma life..cant blive aft 1 ful yr of luvin sumone,she left me jz like dat...well..she's not to blame...im partly at fault too.shldnt hav ask her dat question...eventhough its jz a question dat ppl jz ask at random..jz ike she alwaz do to me...ma tears will nvr stop runnin dwn...ma heart willl nvr heal back....it will nvr eva b da same..i gave it to u...i asked to take gud care of it,but u tore it apart n break tis boi heart...well i guess tis has to end somehow....all da promises.......n i will bcum a living prove of wad luv is about....haix.....its reli hard losin u....wads worse in da times wen im in need of u soo badly....ur stil in ma thoughts no matter of wad i do or hu im wif....all i wanna do is hug u..wen i cld msg u...i sent u da emails...i pray each nite dat i will b able to meet da luv of ma life again so dat she will knw how much i miz n luv her...but fate has dcided not to grant us tat wish...n seperated us both.....haix....i dunno wad to sae.......im too hurt nw.......ma tears wun stop...eva........
hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*