Wednesday, July 27, 2005
10:14 PM
haix......27of july huh???haix......jz wanna sae happy 27 of july to dat sumone out there.,..miz ya....
hmm.........well,da main reason on mon i didn cum is coz,i suffered frm another gastric attack..haix....its like i eva felt b4......i was slpin,den da pain came suddenly..i was grabbin da covers so hard n winchin in pain..ma mum was so worried.....den i ran to da toilet n vomitted like i nvr did....haix.....such a bad incident.haix..dun eva wanna go through it again..n ma bro bdae jz passed recently..21 of july....haha...celebrate it....yeah.kinda fun...da whole fam was there even our cat,kiki....hahahhaha.......n da nex 2 daes,she bcame a mother of 4.....yeah.....exactly at 11.20pm...was watchin tv widd ma mum wen heard her kitten mewin....it was soo cute!!!!!!!!!!!haha...3 males,1 female..not bad...all da males followed their mum n da female followed da dad,hu by da wae is still waitin outside ma gate each dae....so romantic..even cats lurve each other...unlike some ppl......haha....no offence ar...to those terase ar...hmmm.decide to kol 1 male,kimi,a name i reli wan,she will knw yy....n da female kilie....haha......hmmm...den jz nw..reli seyy.....BINGET SAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!skipped maths yest n was tryin to avoid mdm loh,too tired ar...even slp throughout da lesson yest,in da nice,cool weather..planned of hidin in da toilet till everyone goes back to class..but den throw dat idea balik...decided to sit at da back..fuckk...was squatinn dwn n she saw me!!!thought she didn,coz she wear specx...den she came as i acted goin to da sink n wash ma slpyy face...haha.....den social studies..FUCK SIA!!!!!!!!mr wong kol us,me n iz, out aft da lesson,n wanna tok to us abt da performance....da news shocked us SOOO BAD..it was like bein stabbed...iz expression oredi change to anger mode.,..haix.,n i was tryin to fight 4 us performers....it was like,we prepare everything..da moves,da steps......n ma crew,they are chreographin reli hard....haix......iz walked away in anger,n aft mr wong released me,i chased aft him,but he was in full anger,even punched da railins.kick da door.....haix....cant blame him...den recess,i muz see mdm oh...n she nag n nag..haix....aft sch to b cont......fast forward to aft sch,she started to explain me n iz wad mr wong had said earlier.....haix..even anger iz more.....haix....den ma turn......conferance me like i got no hope/..knw she meant weell cant blame her..she's a teacher,n 1 dae,i will face probs like her..i wanna bcum a teacher wad..hahahha......haix....came to canteen n punched da table n vent ma anger on da punchin bag near da table......haix....all ma crew members was like.......haha..dunno la.....yahaya n seri,j knw dat dey stead oredi...haha.....passed her da radio n asked em to rehearse 1st.....while i went 4 remedials....haix....idah was like reli concern...kept askin yy....haix.....i think she like me.......hahaha..perasan.....well,mayb....rumours are dat she does like me......hmmmmmm......hahaha.........den ma classmate broke up....haix.....tryin hard to help em....hmm..poor thing...haix...wads happenin to ma life????!!!.....hmm........haix...session aft remedials.....saw seri n da rest dancin oredi......well....can sae ok2 la.....seen beta.....haha....well,wad to do,jz open da crew seyy...haha.....well,till here......cant b late again...coz dat dae was ma 4th time,on fri.......muz stay outside da general offce/netball court for 2 hours,den got summore punishments....haha.......tis time if i late again,den da new rules will take place.......hahah.....kla.......wanna slp......zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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Sunday, July 24, 2005
4:18 PM
as days passed by,da nearer da feelin gets worse.....ma mock exams are comin soon.n i stil haven prepare...well,i aimin to beat those 'favourites' of da damn irritatin teacher mrs phua...if i can beat em last yr,yy cant i nw???i can do..4 da sake of me,ma fam n dat sumone....haix...been bz mixin songs......4 da national dae performance...n bz widd ma new crew too.had a session yest..to see wad deyy can do...while..at least dey can do sum basic freeze,like da baby freeze n chair...teached em da 1 hand freeze while i touched up ma moves...haha.....kinda surprised wen seri did a cartwheel..den i jz sae 'fuhh....cute seyy seri buat cartwheel..' den i dunno,but idah got soo jealous..haha....hmmmm...wad it meant huh...haha........well,while im practicin yest,i kinda did sumthing n landed on da hand dat i accidentally stabbed...n i jz felt sumthing tear...it was soo painfull.i think its da muscle....ouch....haha....but den its ok oredi nw....h,mmmmm.....2moro stil got a session widd da crew...tis time,i wanna touch up da dance n add in sum things..n cuz,pls...dun b soo depress..u hav me..u will alwaz hav me k...i promise me meet soo k....til den...
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
11:06 PM
hmm...yeah.....haha.....2dae..ma dad send me to sch..wow....long time sia nvrm send me.haha....dunno yy da sudden mood..well,hav to bring da breakdance matt to sch to get readyy 4 da performance..like fuckk sia....nvr get to celebrate racial harmony dae...onli sec 1 to 3.........i n ma frens in class was like ...'dead'..hahaha.....seriously sia..but b4 dat..at last ma appointment widd da v.p...haha......yeah....class cheered sia...all sae "fazly gd luckk" or shake ma hand...haha.....soo honoured....so out out da chem lab i went widd haikal..he oso muz see da v.p......hahah,can sae da v.p wanna see all da malay boys in da class...all slack pe...haha..went to da v.p room in da general office n da interview start......haha.....haix....dunno wads happenin to mie......haha....crazee mayb...well,ma malay o lvls results are out at 5th aug...n ma mock exams are startin in 2 wks...ma prelim orals are nex wk n ma prelims are round da corner followed by da o lvls......stress sia.....everdae remedials n homworks......arghjhhhhh.....haix........well,gtg nw.....too tired........
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Sunday, July 17, 2005
4:04 PM
haix....sumtimes,i reli dunno wads goin on in ma life..sumtimes im reli happi widd ma frens,da next moment i will get reli angry widd em....like yest..there was a shootin widd da IT club...they were enterin a movie makin comp n i n ma frens were da casts..wen i reached the pasir ris park arnd 8,i koled ma faezah n ask her where are they nw,n she sae,they are still at hougang...ok,fine,so i went 4 breakfast b4 ma gastric acts up again..i dunno where to go,n finally,i found a coffeeshop n ate there...den as i was walkin backk,they sae dat they reached da place oredi,n it was da middle section of da park,so i walked as fast as i can, n while walkin,i received a msg,sayin dat i was da leadin actor...i was like,wad da fuckk...i was onli supposed to act as da policeman,n i carried da dumb uniform n boots to there, n onli to knw dat ma role hav been change wifout ma knwin....i was damn pissed off sia......but...i knw,i was late,n its partly ma fault too.i knw..so i jogged nw....den it started to drizzle...n i went to a toilet to ask where is toilet C,where da rest are...n da vendor said,it was near downtown east there.......so i walked there,reached there,it was toilet D.....ARGH......n they kept kolin accusin me of things im not doin n asked me to hurry up......haix....dunno wad to sae....as i was walkin back to da middle sector,iz koled n accused me of doin sumthing n damn i was angry.......here i was walkin in da nw heavy rain,drenched frm top to bottom,n they change ma role wifout ma knwin,n nw,i was accused..damn...........haix......it wasnt ma role to b da leadin actor,it was iz,n i was onli to b actin in 1 scene,n yy da hell is he angry at me?? if im late,den i knw its ma fault,but,damnnit,i was onli to b actin in 1damn scene......wads da big fuss about??n worse,aft i came,(appearently i found em near da 3rd sector of the park)ma part came 1 hour n a hlf leta....so wad was da mistake nw????i came late,but was i late 4 ma scene??no.......so yy muz they b reli angry at me??i've done ma job,ma role, n ma responsibility as a policeman in da movie,so yy m i still bein mad at??? heyy if theyy are angryy coz of da last min role change,it wasnt ma fault...it wasnt even ma role in da 1st place ok guys.......i was da god damn freakkin policeman.....n i came late coz i went to da wrong place......n it was rainin heavily k.......pls....if u wanna accuse of me anihow,den its up to uu..im innocent widd da exception dat i came late,n i didn do anithing to cause ma lateness...so dun sae i did tis n tis dats yy im late...coz i didn....see 4 urself,i was drenched frm top to bottom,n nw im sickk............haix........but i am sayin sori coz of ma lateness n ma tone used wen u all koled,but i cnt control it wen i was accused of things i didn do......cmon guys,wld u like it if u were me.....think......haix......den i muz reached home b4 3pm....ma parents wants me to clean up ma room...coz got ppl wanna cum,haix......aft da ppl left,ma fam went out to eat near lorong ah soo there n we kinda visited our old blk....wow....i n ma bro were like lil kids..we were damn happi....co+ last time,near our blk there got a playgrnd n they was a mini zip line...n wen it got stuck in da middle,i n ma bro or frens hav to jump n jumpp n jump jz to get da thing or wait 4 sumonw taller,nw,we can jz rached it wifout jumpin.,haha.....we were laughin n laughin.,....haha.,...kinda nice feelin like dat......knwnin dat we hav grown up n time hav moved past us soo fast...learned sum lessons there......hmmmmm........haha.........
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Friday, July 15, 2005
12:05 AM
14 of july......hmm....7 more daes til ma bro bdae..yeahh.......well da dae started off kinda widd me g0inn all craziee...well...i purposely skip 5 buses so i will b late 4 sch,..b4 enterin da sch,went to da shop outside n buy a bottle of pink dolphin,bread n sum sweets to eat in class...n true enuff,i reached da sch at 8..den,da ma name was taken dwn n i hav to sit outside da h.o.d room til 9..n da nex time im late,ma parents will hav to cum to meet da v.p...yeahh....felt kinda lazie t0 studyy....dunno yy....slack nk mampos nyer..hmm....i got nuthin much on ma mind..n i cnt jz think..all i can think is dat i dun feel like studyin 2dae coz i was too tired..didn slp well last nite...coz of sum reasons..well,aft g0in backk t0 class,it was art,n i was late...nw,i purposely walk arnd da sch..n wen a teacher asked,i jz show da excuse form,filled up by da office n walk off..jz dunno wad happenin to mie...den,at eng class..all can do is jz zzzzzzzzzz......yar...dats rite.....i slpt throughout eng class..den recess..didn eat at all.....no appetite....den played capteh....haha.....da boys was playin together till a teacher came n scold all of us.can sae almost all didn cum dwn 4 recess coz got geog test......n damn,i cleean 4getton abt it...n sacrificed ma 2 periods by makin late mins notes n study secretly....hope i pass....but i dun care oso......i jz dunno y...den social studies....muz hand up da files 4 file checkin..can all 4 all da sub,files muz b handed in.....but i jz dun give a fuckk 2dae...n skip ma accounts class..tellin others im not feelin well...den i,iz n shasi went to compass point n walk arnd...nuthin to do,we finally sit arnd da indoor N.E.L station n lepak....haha.....while we were breakinn dwn there,we were like fugitives lookin out 4 da 'green man'.....ahakz..it refers to da mrt staff,hu will jz chase anione away wen they hang arnd anihow...so,wen we saw them cumin,we will jz do sum crazee stuffs,like tokin nonsense or jz do stupid things.....haha....den wen home...n slp in da bathtub.....haha......so nice......da water soo hot n full of bubbles....long time nvr do dat...hmmm......listennin to boys II men song,end of the road..such a sad song...haix.........haix.....til the end of the road,still i cnt let go......fuckk sia...da song like hintin sumthing to mie..damn song.....haixxxxxxx.......
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
10:06 PM
haix.....reli......haix....jz came backk from da library..den get scoldin frm ma parents..came home late again.ahakz..its nearly 9:30 wen i reached home.remedials nw everydae startin n end arnd 5 or 6..den summore got things to do.......n tis fri listenin comp o lvl.......die ar..wenn to get sum information on abt pregnant cats.yarr..ma cat pregnant..1 mnth oredi...cant wait seyy..surely da kitten will b cute..i knw,i wanna put 1 as hakimi.....it meant alot to mie,tat name...haix...well heyy...to dat sumone..i reli dunno wad to sae..how could u jump to conclusion wifout findin out more..u hate it wen i did it,but wad are euu doin nw??haix...i told euu,i didn go to venice..ask anione..deyy will knw..onli 3 person frm ma class went..da rest were ffrm da other sec 3/4/5 classes...haix...i didn do anithingg wrong..yy muz u accuse me jz like dat wen i did nuthin wrong..n since wen i went to ubin on da march holidays too??i onli wen 4 ma npcc camp at sch..n da onli places i knw i went are mlysia...haix...pls la....stop jumpin to conclusions n 4 once,4 once,trust me like euu alwaz do n stop listenin to da dumb rumours n stuffs...pls......it hurts mie wen it turn out tis wae..pls.........haix......anithing,i knw.....i will alwaz n 4eva luv euu.........
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Monday, July 11, 2005
10:20 PM
hmm....hhaha.....long time nvr blog huh...well..dunno wad came over mie dat i wanna post 2dae...well lets start off widd da oral examinations..hmm...i think im gonna pass,but barely ar...haix..da moment i enter da examination room,i was like all 'ermmmmmm,uhhh'..haha...mind totally blank..hmm..yar..den ans da qns like all too nervous..haiz....den sumore,fam stil facin probs..yarr...stil..haix....everydae was like remedials,remedials,remedials...no more foolin arnd,prelims arnd da corner seyy..yarr...hmm...v.p teach physics...haha....cnt skip sia..or else kene by him..damn babu singh...i pull ur hair den u knw.....haha....me n ma frens alwaz joked abt his long hair,n imagine his chest,armpit n pubic hair.....wahhaa.n howw longg he muzz take t0 shampo0 em....haha.....den maths class muz b seperated into 2 class,luckily i nvr go diff class...haha...hmm/...ma art goinn on well,gettin readyy for printinn..hope it turn out well....yar..aft muxh scoldin n maki frm ms rokiah,at last i came 4 art...haha...but haix...da last few daes,life kinda suck...well,on fri...went to sch jz in time...den kene scoldin,scoldin.....den goin hm,ma ezlink spoil,kiwakk..bingett sakk..den go hougang point n breakk,breakk,breakk,dats ma life aft da break up.haix..den play soccer..haha....but b4 plaayin soccer,i was kinda cuttin sumthing widd ma xacto/art knife..den i think i was thinkin of her..yar,nisa...n i used too much force n accidentally stabbed ma own hand...walauz......haha..but da funny thing,4 da few seconds,i thought nuthin it was onli a scratch,but aft i put da knife away,man,i was panickkin..haha...ma whole hand was covered widd blood..i dunno wad to do....i was too horrified..da blood....omg......haix..den go up to syazwan house n clean da wound n bandaged it up.....haha...till nw stil pain seyy.....haix...life...den 2dae.....walauuuu..........haix......damn unluckyy seyy.....1st,cum to sch late,da dum J.C ppl......fuckers...coz of em,da bus all full like wad...laziee ppl..can walk dun wan,wanna take bus,den onli 4 1 busstop.....argh...ppl da mangkok,den lagi ma ezlink kene retained..fuck da bus driver ar.how m i gonna tap ma attendance for da new sch system......den cum sch late,muz take dwn name...den..as usual,scoldin,scoldin....n ma form teacer came back frm australia,n haix.......dunno how to explain.....da whole dae,kept thinkin of her..asked her a qn,but she didn reply back.haixx..its ok,knw wad it meant,,,...yar,u knw hu u are....haix...den got accounts test.haix...all ma studies drop seyy.used to score well 4 accounts n chem,but nw,its da opposit..haix....haix..dunno la..wad happen,1st time i give up on ma accounts test..haix...fuckk la..den..aft sch,muz go to ang mo kio int to take back da card..den came there,da dumb ppl in da control room sae dat muz cum wait 24 hours..wad da fuck seyy..damn it la..cibai...mak kau nye puki ar...ARGHHHHH.....tired2 go den kene go home empty......den another bus driver..more dumb....i paid standard student fare,which is 60cents,den he asked to show ma pass,i sae nicely dat it is bein retained,even showed him da note...wad did he do???he said NO....fuckk...blood boilin sia...damn him.......it goes like tis la
bus driver:show me ur pass.
me:ma pas kena retained.i got da note..i can show u ma ic.
bus driver:no i wann da pass..
(boilin).....me:ehh,excus me k..pls...u cnt see i wearin sch uniform ar??n i showed u dat ma pass kene retain rite.
bus driver:no show me ur pass..
mie:ok fine,how much to tampines int.
bus driver:1.60
n i jz took out 1 dollar n throw it inda dumb coin thingy......fuckk ar...blood boilin seyy...dumb sbs......ARGH.............haix...........opened ma own crew finally,its called,divided lunaticx...under ma main crew,which is dsoulx..yar......haix............such bad luckk.......life sux...
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